Fair Warning

Fair warning, so today I caught myself overwhelmed by negativity. I woke up with so much on my mind. I found myself anxious, insecure, I really felt unsafe but I could not pin point the motive or the cause for all of the fear. I could not believe I was actually suffering from it. I Basically had fear for my life, a fear of dying a fear that my life was in trouble. Now I don’t know if anyone else has ever felt this way but sometimes it comes with out warning. Sometimes we just wake up and everything seems morbid. Those are times when we must pray for peace from God and have hope in the plan of our creator. NowI failed, instead i did the opposite and ended up being humbled. I was sitting in the kitchen and I began to comfort my self. I wanted to find peace in myself first. I began saying things to myself, things like “if something bad was going to happen, I think God would at least warn me.” “God wouldn’t let me die with out a warning.” “He loves me, he will warn me.”then I realized the stupidity in those statements. I was talking as if God owed me something, like I deserved a fair warning. I began to think of all the things I have done wrong in my life and all the warnings God has granted me and all the times I went back and still committed the same mistake. After all of that disobedience, do I really deserve God reaching down and warning me again? I don’t deserve a fair warning, or a fair trial, but miraculously he still continues to guide me. Amazingly he still continues to warn me. The way God loves is without conditions and even though I don’t deserve that guidance I try my best to be deserving of it. I can’t keep falling into the same pit over and over again. I can’t keep asking God to pull me out of my mistakes, I am striving to make less and less mistakes because he loves me that much. Somehow he humbled me, somehow he still loves me. After praying I found peace for my life, assurance that the days I do live will not be in fear but in joy that I have nothing to fear. How can I fear death when the living God who overcame death itself never leaves us, He is always with us. I should not fear death, I should not fear for my future for as long as I serve my God I have hope, I have security, I have a life everlasting with him. My fair warning is this, life is hard but with God I have hope and eternal life.